I feel so blessed this year to have you with me to share our Christmas holiday. You are my first child – my first holiday child, I have been waiting for you for a very long time. I have so much to tell you, and so much love in my heart for you, I don’t know even where to start.
You are so beautiful. So perfect and wonderful. You are a beautiful unique shining light in my world. Thank you for sharing our Christmas with us. It makes it more special because you are here, .
The house is decorated. Paul always goes all out on the outside – there are lights, and lighted statues, and wreaths on almost every inch of the yard. This year he bought an antique lighted Santa at a yard sale. It is kitschy and cute, and has a place in the centre of the yard. Sometimes I expect him to bring home a leg lamp like the one from A Christmas Story – yes – he is that kind of guy! I love to do the inside decorating. I have some decorations from when I was a child, and then every year I like to add one special piece to add to the house. One of my favourites is the fibre optic Santa, that sits in the dining room. I hope you like it too. It lights up in all colours of the rainbow. It the perfect Santa for this house – our Santa and our family welcomes all colours of the rainbow here. You are welcomed, loved and safe here.
Paul and I have a fabulous dinner prepared for you and any of your friends you bring. He will take care of the turkey. I love vegetables. All kinds of vegetables. We will have yams, and Brussel sprouts (I promise they are amazing when cooked with bacon!), carrots, and a big salad. I can’t eat any gluten, but there will be traditional stuffing for you. When I was little, we used to fight over the stuffing. I have to admit, most of the time, we would stand over the turkey and eat the stuffing as it was coming out of the turkey. It’s funny how some of our best memories are around the food of the holiday. I hope that you have a new happy memory from our Christmas dinner.
My brother started a funny holiday tradition when we were younger adults. He owned a video store for years, and every Christmas he would bring an ACTION ADVENTURE movie for us to all watch together after dinner. You know how sometimes after a big meal, you just want to sleep. Well his thought was an action movie would keep us awake. This year you can choose the movie. I love finding a comfy spot to curl up and watch the movie with my family close by. I hope you pick the spot on the couch next to me. You might chose a spot on a cushion so the dogs can snuggle in close to you. Speaking of the fur family, we do include them in our holiday traditions. The dogs and the cat always get their own stockings (we have yours hanging on the fireplace mantle too). We also have special Christmas dog collars for both the girls that they wear during the holiday season.
We might play a game after the movie is over. My family is notoriously competitive. It is completely genetic, and I have seen it in my siblings, and my nieces and nephews. We all love to win. It can make for some pretty boisterous games of Pictionary or Trivial Pursuit. Join in and be ready for a lot of fun. You can be on Paul’s or my team – he is better at Pictionary. And if it is Trivial Pursuit, you have to watch out for my brother John – he has more useless bits of trivia in his head than should be possible. If we team up for Trivial Pursuit, choose his team!
I went on a walking holiday in the fall to Spain. It was a pilgrimage of sorts. A place to go and find quiet and just be myself. I walked 350 kilometres over 17 days. Every day the only thing I had to do that day was walk. And on all of those days, I had to be with myself. Just myself. It was hard and it was beautiful and I learned a number of lessons that I hope I will never forget. One of them is just keep moving forward. There will be days when the hardships seem overwhelming, when you think you can’t do it. Just take another step. Just one more step. That step may be the one that brings you back into the sunshine. It may be the one that carries you to joy, or to peace, or it may just be the one that carries you to a comfortable bed for the night (you always have that here you know that right?). The other thing I learned is that life if precious, we are precious. The best thing we can do is treat every day as magical and special. Even the days that aren’t. That’s hard to do sometimes. Know that I am always here to help you see the good in every day. Somedays it just has to be that one thing. I had one day when I was walking, that I was ready to quit. I had already walked 150 kilometers, and I just thought I was being stupid, and wasting my time. And I really, really, just wanted to quit. But I talked to Paul (we used Messenger) and you know what, he just listened – he listened and he encouraged me – and I felt a bit better – so the next morning I got up and I started to walk again. I know that this sounds silly, because I chose to go on this walk. But you know what – I needed to go on the walk – and I needed to be in the quiet and just with myself and my thoughts. And from that I came home knowing that I am special and I am deserving of love and happiness. We all are. You are. You are so deserving of love and happiness.
Know that you are loved and welcome here. If there is anything I can do to make your Christmas the most special ever, I will do it. I know that Christmas can be a lonely time, and even if we are just a small tribe this year, we will be a mighty tribe. We want to fill the day with love and laughter. I said at the beginning I don’t know much about being a mother, but I have love and understanding, and I have a warm safe home for you to enjoy this Christmas.
Thank you for joining us. Thank you for letting me shine some love on you. Thank you for being the very special and beautiful you.
All my love
Holiday Mom Heather