Here we are, in the thick of the holiday season. On paper, we love this time of year. As the days become shorter and colder, people rush to get out of the chill, to get indoors and sink into the warmth of their cozy homes. Every night, more and more windows begin to fill with twinkling fairy lights, little pinpricks of brightness and color in the dark.
On paper, this is a season of anticipation and excitement. We plan menus and parties. We anticipate trips and visits with our families, people we love so much that we may not see as often as we like. We pick gifts we hope will please the people we love, and wait anxiously for the moment when we can watch their eyes light up and revel in the joy of giving.
But as wonderful and beautiful and glorious as the world is, sadly, it is not as simple as it is on paper.
Sometimes the holidays hurt. This is true for many people, for many reasons, big and small; but for people who are marginalized, abandoned, or degraded simply because of their identity, the hurt can be monumental. I can’t claim to know what you are going through. All I can do is do what I can from far away to heal those hurts, however I can.
I want to give you the love and warmth you may not receive from the family you were born to. I want to give you a place of safety and love, to see joy shining out of your eyes, to fill your belly and your heart. I want to welcome you home, to rub the warmth back into your fingers as you come in from the cold, to kiss your hair and tell you how happy I am to see you, beautiful, perfectly imperfect, warts-and-all you.
While I can’t hold you in my arms, I hold you in my heart, today, tomorrow, every day if you need it. I am your Holiday Mom, but my love for you is not limited to these quiet, dark months. I love you every minute of every day. You are such a gift to me: your presence, your essence, your history, your future, everything that makes you YOU. My world is brighter and fuller because I know a person like you is out there, making the universe so glorious. Every day this holiday season, I promise to think about you, with all your beauty and bravery, and to send you love and light.
I am proud of you. I delight in you. You are a blessing and you are beloved.
Happy Thanksgiving! Merry Christmas! Joyous Kwanzaa! Hanukkah Sameach! Peace on earth and in your wonderful, lovely heart.
Love always, every day, every moment,
Erin, Your Holiday Mom