I am not the “Momma” I thought I would be. The one I yearned for myself as a child, the one I vowed to be as I got older. I am however proud of the Momma I became. I wanted a dozen children to love and nurture. I learned being a Momma hasn’t as much to do with bringing a child in to the world as it does cherishing every child who is brought into your world.
I do have two children who grew within my body. But there are many of you who grew within my heart just as easily. All of my children are at least young adults now. One of my girls became engaged to a lovely young woman this year, and gifted my husband and my hearts with two grandsons. I wish very much to include you in my heart over this season as well.
There is no failure in being the best and truest you that you can be. You are everything positive in this world. You are a light shining clearly for all who are worthy to be brought to. Life isn’t always easy. And being human is sometimes very difficult. Stand true to the goodness within your heart, and stand proudly of who you are. Only you can define who that person looking back from the mirror “is”.
My wishes for you are to have no more than you need, but enough to share as needed. I wish I could deal our UNO cards to you, remind you it’s your roll in Yahtzee. I wish I could take you outside, and force you to dance in the rain (because you will pretend you hate the very idea). I wish you to find yourself walking a trail in nature one day and realize YOU are a part of all you see, and then you move a spider to safety. I wish for you to feel the warmth of a true smile cross your lips, and to see this smile in the eyes of another. I wish you to never think for once you are “too old” to snuggle, and to always be true to yourself. You are a perfect you.
I want you to give me something in return. A promise. To remember the following words I write to you, my cherished one, as this is my life motto.
When you walk through the forest- note every leaf and seed upon the ground just as you see the tree. The seeds and leaves are just as important as the tree from where they came. They have a job to do, and are set out a course. We all have a turn in this. We nourish the tree and critters, and one day we will be just as grounded as the tallest Oak. I want you to continue walking, each stone and pebble- see them for the beauty and knowledge they contain. They are the ones who have been there before us. Choose to walk with someone when you can, but never ever fear walking your path alone. There will always be someone amazing around the bend. And when you reach the creek, wade through the water and splash around a bit. Promise me you won’t always cross by way of bridges.
May you find the forests of your life to contain as much beauty as I know there is within you. And may you see that same beauty within yourself.
I love YOU my child.