Dear Holiday Child,
I can hardly believe the Christmas turkey has been ordered, and I am hoping I can get everyone together for a picture for our holiday card. I am imagining you with us. You and your brothers and sister-in-law will be trying not to laugh at some joke while I take a million pictures. Of course, this year we also have your baby niece in the photo with you, which means two new blessings.
As this Mama gets older, I fuss less about the state of my kitchen floor, whether the front-door wreath is decorated, or if the kitten has rolled tree ornaments down the hallway. Instead, I want to focus on visiting with my children, and relaxing in front of the fire. When you and I sit on the yellow couch, with our legs stretched toward each other and three cats draped across us (the black lab has his new bone on the floor so he is happy too,) what will we say? I hope you will tell me about your hard times as well as the good. I hope you tell me what frightens and what delights you. And most of all, I hope you tell me about your dreams. Then I can share how proud I am of you; how I see who you are now—creative, intelligent, determined, and full of light. I can also see the adult you are becoming, and it fills me with happiness. You will work passionately toward goals that are important to you. You will be comfortable in your own skin, and thoughtful and welcoming of others who seem a bit lost or have been hurt by the world. You will love and be loved. This future may be difficult for you to see right now. I know it is not always easy being you. Please remember that this family admires and respects all you do to be your best true self.
When we fall silent and become mesmerized by the tree, full of years worth of child-made ornaments, I will tell you about your Dad’s and my first Christmas together. He wanted large, white tree lights that didn’t blink. I wanted small, multi-colored lights that flashed all at different times. So we blended our traditions and have swaged strands of small, multicolored lights (non-blinking!) each year. When you have your own home, I wonder what you will choose? Will you and your future love start your own traditions? I cannot wait to see.
This season, and every other, you are in my heart. I will forever send you thoughts of love, comfort, confidence and joy. You are special, not just to me, but to all of us. Be safe. Be you.
I love you, my wonderful Holiday Child.